I am the first to admit that I am unexcited about a place where God has sent me. I have talked to with God and to God about it several times. I at first expressed my excitement at the opportunity. I then accepted the assignment. And now I am ready for God to move me somewhere else. I have God's assurance that He is there with me, but I do not want to be there. In my not wanting to be there every time there is an incident I immediately have an inner temper tantrum.
What does that look like? My disposition changes. I make sure to listen carefully to every word that is said so that if "they try me" I will be ready to correct them. I make sure to do only what I agreed to do and not one thing more, and feel like they better be happy about it. As I was in the middle of my latest one, God gave me 1 Corinthians 13:11-12. I hear Him say to me "childish." I sat to listen to what God had to say to me about His will. His will is not based upon my desires because I do not know everything. No, let me be clear. His will is not based on anything about me because I am not God. God knows everything, which includes where I need to be and when I need to be there. So rather than complain about His will I repented and obeyed without grumbling.
I then chose to remember that the will of God is not about my feelings or what I think. Even when it seems like I am losing I remember that I already have victory through Jesus Christ. So I put away childish things - attitudes and dispositions - and bow my will to His will. I can tell Him I feel, but I also trust that He knows the way to take my soul even when I think I know better. So I chose to make the adjustment and obey His will.
Trusting His will above my own,